Sad

Sometimes I cry at other people’s funerals. I play violin for a choir that only and always sings for funerals so I’m sorta setting myself up for depression aren’t I? Today Keets’ grandpa died and it pushed me harder to remember that 8 days from now a year ago papa died. Usually Keets is sorta mean and rude and really inconsiderate and disrespectful to me and happy and a suck up to other people so to see her break down only reminds me that no one can hide from crying forever.

And then I’m sitting here listening to my ipod and even though usually I’m always playing happy songs, it’s only Sadness and Sarrow (from Naruto, got it from Cuong) that connects to me.