Now what?

I have been putting this off for the longest time. I actually made this post on May 19th but just never got around to writing it. I guess I really wanted to write this post because there seemed to be a lot going on and I needed to get it all organized. Now though, that I’m sitting down actually typing, it doesn’t feel like too much.

Well, I’m currently at work, and that’s been going well. Keets has come back for the summer and a new girl, Rebekah, will start work on Monday. I’ll get to meet her tomorrow though at the First Day of Sale event in Maryland. I’m not sure how I feel about another new girl but we’ll see.

The youth group Companion levels are either on their way or at their conference in Missouri. I decided not to go because of some trouble with them and some lying and drama, and Brother has decided it’s not worth it to go anyway. I agree. I guess for the rest of this week if I’m ever just sitting there and doing nothing, I might think about how it might’ve been fun if I’d gone but otherwise, hopefully I won’t think about it much.

Dance practice restarts the week after July 4th, unless the Kings Dominion trip is then and we’d just have to postpone. And then there’s a weekend where they have camp. So we had…about 7 or 8 weeks to practice the two new songs. Now, however, we have at most either 5 or 6 practices so of course, I’ll be making them work their butts off. I guess I should work my butt off at the choreography so that I’ll be justified in making them work hard.

I don’t know if I’m going to get my Assistant Leader scarf in youth group or not. At first the main leader told me I’d get mine before the other trainees because the other trainees were going to the Conference in Missouri as Companions so they’d get their Leader scarf after they came back. I’d get mine at the troop’s anniversary since I’m not going to the Conference. Then apparently the trainer got pissed off because she insisted that she trained all of us really hard so we should all get the scarves. We were going to ALL get the scarves, I was just going to get mine before the others. Then she made a big deal about how it’s not fair for the main leader to make her do the ceremony twice. But thing is, she never really did any training. The only real training we had was at the sleepover, and other people were doing the training. She just organized and watched. Now the deal is that they’ll give us the scarves at camp. But from what I’ve heard, camp is for the Blue scarves only this year, meaning we, the Yellows who are leaders in training, would have to go to a Blue scarf camp and help them out but not be able to participate, and then get our Leader scarves amongst people we don’t really know, without family and friends to cheer us on? I thought that we would be going to a Blue/Yellow scarf camp and get to participate in camp one last time and then move up, but I guess they don’t think the same. And it’s pointless to bring this to the main leader because his term has already ended. He’s still the Yellow scarf leader but not the main leader and he insists on not caring. He keeps telling me to go talk to the new main leader but technically, his term doesn’t start until August. So they have all these activities and decisions to make during the summer and no one to supervise. Well, maybe there are people to supervise but no one to make official decisions so we’re always left in the dark. So I was thinking, I wasn’t even going to go to the camp. So what if they don’t give me my scarf then? They’d have to give it to me later anyway, and they’d end up doing the ceremony twice anyway! And they can’t kick me out, right? At least I don’t think they can, they’d have to give me my leader scarf sooner or later. This isn’t like school, we all come of our own free will (supposedly), so there’s nothing they can really do to us. I found that out a long time ago.

Now though, the last time I had off hand convos with the ex-main leader, he said that it looks like the camp might just be for Blue and Yellow but you know what?? My aunt’s wedding, we found out a few days ago, is that weekend so Brother and I won’t be going to camp anyway! YAY! Haha! Ah well, that solves that I guess. Yea it’s sort of lame ranting about it now that the problem is done and over with. Isn’t it more exciting to read about stuff as the problems come up so there’s…and I’ve forgotten the damned word.

Erm…I’ve been spending money so frivolously nowadays. But no more. So far for the rest of the summer all I need to buy is: a camera chord…some jewelry making stuff…clothes. That is all! No more spending! During the first year that I worked I used to always have money in the bank and stuff. I used to be able to eat at real restaurants and not worry about the money. Now I’m poor as hell and am worrying even when I go to the cafe next door! I don’t want to be like that! So I’m going to try harder to save money and shizz. I also need to send out more scholarship apps. The scholarships I got last year were renewed but there’s a new policy on the renewals that you can’t get them back as spending money soooooo yea. Phooey.

I guess…that’s sort of it…Wasn’t that long or intense at all. I’ll try to post more stuff this summer as I have time. I think I also have to do more entertainment reviews and stuff. Maybe I’ll start with an anime or two and then a few horror movies here and there. Yay!

Laterz!